Sorry for being late on this. I somehow lost all my technical capabilities over the weekend (which is funny considering...)
In consideration of time, I guess the “too long, didn’t read” summary: I’m interested in how scholarship and activism work hand in hand and how Lifton, who’s writing this memoir not as a direct action activist, but as a scholar who advocates for activism and does so through writing, manages that anxious feeling that things are moving on without him or feeling that he is missing his chance to really help when its needed most.
I think the most interesting aspect of Lifton’s memoir is his attempt at defining scholarship and how it relates to activism. Lately, the idea of what criticism is and how it manifests within social justice, particularly within the field of game criticism, is a subject that many within the game industry have been dealing with. As a new field that encourages diverse voices, especially those who tends to be on the younger spectrum, I’ve noticed that these writers and activists typically spotlight injustice by resorting to public shaming and online harassment—the same tactic that’s traditionally used by those who begin the harassment.
I guess I mention this because I wrote a slightly long blog post/mini-essay on how Lifton’s relation between scholarship and activism is something I’ve been thinking about when it comes to the value of good criticism versus these online bouts between critics themselves. (
linked here)
In that post I point to a very specific passage that was illuminating:
Goodman was rejecting, or failing to appreciate, the larger principle of the importance of taking a scholarly approach to highly destructive events. I share his sense of horror and rage in connection with the atomic bombings, but I had set myself the task of exploring systematically the psychological consequences of the weapon. My work on destructive historical events was based on a specific conviction: we had to go beyond mere outrage and disgust to seek a fuller grasp of what led to an atrocity, what it did to fellow human beings, and what significance it had for the world that remained.
I highly value Lifton’s approach and I feel he presents a super articulate defense for scholarship that resonates with how I want to approach scholarship within game studies. Yet I tend to feel incredibly anxious that I am missing my opportunity to speak if I am not fast enough, if this methodical approach then becomes a hindrance to participating in the warp-speed discourse that moves at a pace I myself can hardly keep up with.
Though I of course am not suggesting we talk about game studies and the field itself, I think the 21st century is forcing us to think about how we view scholarship, seeing as how access and thoughts don’t need to be peer reviewed or picked up for publishing in order for them to be read critiqued and integrated into the discourse. On the one hand this “lifting of the gates” excites me, but like I said above, creates both an anxious feeling of exclusion as well as a possible lack of deeply critical reflection which is counter intuitive to a productive healthy conversation.
Maybe not in the same ways, but I’m finding that Lifton felt this anxiety between action and inaction and that’s why he continually brings up the defense for scholarship when reflecting on his hesitance for direct action (or at least in his idea direct action, though to us he was plenty involved). So maybe even though Lifton and I work on a completely different speed of “acting” we both feel this sense of inadequacy, whether or not it is legitimate.